“There is nothing less hurtful than people who don’t pick their phones up when you really need to tell them something.
perhaps it’s just the freak that i am, but i sort of plan my conversations and build up all this excitement and anticipation when i punch in the numbers and wait for it to connect… nervously tapping my fingers waiting for the person i’m calling to press ‘ok’ in their phone so i can scream the good news over the airwaves that make the 12,000 miles disappear for those few minutes.
but of course, i’ve been disappointed again and again. this is what being optimistic and believing that someone would actually like to hear from me, really does. crash and burn. ‘…leave a message after the tone…’ and i put down the phone and put it back in its corner and walk down the stairs back to my room. rinse, wash, repeat several times. ”
Phunkstar (November 17 2004)
She doesn’t blog very much anymore, in fact, I have no clear idea as to what really happened to her in the online world. Wherever she is, whomever she is, this entry that she wrote really, really inspired me and I’ve kept it carefully saved in a notepad file ever since 
that’s so precious that you saved the entry.. I few of those floating around. I read them when I’m down.